May 2011
3 posts
I’m back. kind of.
I don’t know if anyone remembers me but hey.
November 2010
2 posts
hey world..
remember me? yeah I kind of disappeared for a few months.
update of my life… still barely eating of course, more of a depressed mess than this summer, but at least I’m starting to get back in shape. swim team. woo.
I got out of an abusive relationship and he’s still not leaving me alone. it’s fucking with my head so badly. I can’t deal with it.
I’m not...
August 2010
110 posts
do you ever feel burried deep? six feet under...
scarsthatglitter:
i do.
I am lost.
why am I such a messed up person? I can’t be a good friend, I can’t be a good daughter, I can’t be a good girlfriend. I don’t know what I want other than to be alone. I want to run away catch a plane to Europe and create a new life in a country where I can speak the language already and just make a new identity…cut my hair, dye it, get all the tattoos I’ve ever...
helloooo
I’m back on the interwebz. vacation, if you can call it that, was awful to say the least. I gained at least 5 pounds. eff. although I can’t really see too much off a difference in my waist or legs but I can feel it… ugh. school starts tomorrow. means I can get right back on track k thanks :D I’ll be too busy to breathe let alone eat. well I’ll update more soon I gotta...
this is the only place where i am allowed to feel...
(via waistful)
ugh.
I just spent two days eating normally and binging like crazy and paid for it. 127 as of this morning…fuck. I hate being constantly watched and told to eat.
the stars are blazing like rebel diamonds: I don't... →
I think I had a dream, and everyone wrote their story on a dollar. It could be anything, it could be about your crush, about school, about something that makes you happy or sad, just anything, and when you spent that dollar, your story would get passed on. You wouldn’t include names, or anything…
just am fully realizing that my family will be basically force feeding me throughout my visit. and I’m freaking out. I’ve worked so hard for this waist and these hip bones. I will keep eating to a minimum and feed my dog the rest idk but I WILL NOT gain weight fuckit. I can’t.
and I won’t even have wifi so I’ll only be able to go on here very rarely for a few...
away for 10 days :/
just letting you all know so you don’t think I’ve abandoned you all
food calories today: 630ish
net calories: 250
:D I ran for a good half hour and swam after. woot! and all I had after my long workout was a little glass of soy milk and now water. yeeeah. day three binge free!
ice cream. my weakness.
I didn’t even binge on it I had like one little scoop, no more than 90 calories. but I feel so full and disgusting after that amount. I don’t like this feeling at all ew. I’m just mad that I allowed myself after I swore “no snacking” today. bah.
amsterdamngood asked: the pillow cases are from Urban Outfitters. :)
skankybarbie asked: the pillowcases are from urban outfitters(: http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?_dyncharset=ISO-8859-1&navAction=jump&id=18505172&search=true&isProduct=true&parentid=SEARCH+RESULTS&color=010
lunacy-deactivated20101212 asked: Pillowcases are from Urban Outfitters : )
ouf.
I was so exhausted this morning I couldn’t drag myself out of bed for a run, and now it’s way too hot out. fail. I guess I’ll settle for biking today and go for a quick jog in the evening.
I seriously need to clean my room it look like a tsunami just hit my closet. leave me messages while I’m gone pleease?
http://showmeyourskinny.tumblr.com/ask
books-and-bones asked: ok this is going to sound creepy but i love your hip bones!
I want to look tiny in a huge sweater. I want my...
dropdead-chemical-kid:
animalfat:
(via perfect-bones, bethinforyou)
OH FUCK YEAH.
YESSS.
day two totally binge free
it feels great. today I’m pretty sure I got in about 600 or 700 cals, but it was all healthy and natural. I plan on going for a quick run to start of tomorrow morning with negative calories ^.^
I don’t really have a daily work out routine, other than crunches, squats, push ups, leg lifts, planks, and simple pilates every night. I plan on running 3-4 days a week and biking whenever,...
Anonymous asked: You look great girl. I'm 115 and 5'9, but I have bigger thighs :/
today
pretty good I guess. can’t have gone over 500 woohoo. went to a friend’s house for dinner and we made little healthy pizzas they were so good I swear I would have binged so badly if it was at my house. I feel so bloated though I don’t know why maybe my period is early. ugh god I hope not…I’m seeing the bf thursday then going on a 16 hour car ride on friday. effff.
I...
achtungadderall-deactivated2011 asked: 1) you are so thin
2) I am jealous
3) I have the same kind of orchid as you
2) I am jealous
3) I have the same kind of orchid as you
mindinabox asked: you look really great :)
